A Little Quiet.

Something you should know about me is that if you find me laughing, which is often, it's usually at myself.  I have said it many times before - and will for years - but I am a mess, and living in that state means constantly laughing at the ridiculous things I say and do.  Because they happen.  A lot.

So I find it comical that about a month ago I made an announcement about "revamping" this  blog (hardly the right word, but let's go with it) only to be promptly followed by something resembling radio silence.  Cool.  Insert me laughing at myself here.

Something that I have sought for this blog to be from the beginning - which, what-the-what, was almost five years ago - is authentic.  Real.  Genuine.  Straight up.  So in an attempt to be just that, I am going to go against the grain that is my natural response and not apologize for being so quiet.  This is hard for me to do because I've wanted to have material to share, stories to tell, and pictures to show, but anything I tried to come up with just felt a little hollow.  I even prayed for fresh revelation in my attempt to be in-tune with the Spirit, but I just haven't had much of anything to pour out these last few weeks, and I truthfully don't think that I will for a few more.

I have grand visions for my future and the future of this space, and I want so desperately to be "there" and be able to share more with you all, but the hard truth, which I am certain we all know and don't-so-much-love, is that in order to get "there" I must walk it out and be patient through the process.  And patience is not my middle name (neither is "grace," but that's another story for another day).

So it's been a little quiet here, and it's been a little quiet in my real life, too, but I think that's one of the most beautiful aspects of the season of Advent.  It is a time to pause and to wait in quiet expectation.  So I am going to enjoy the quiet and enjoy the waiting, and maybe even learn to enjoy the patience the process requires.

I look forward to seeing you all in 2015.