As I have found to be a constant in life, things in my world recently got a little shaken up with a dirty six-letter word: change. There is looming change on the horizon that, if I'm honest, came as quite a a surprise when my eyes were opened to it, and my response to this pending change was the same as my usual: worry, stress, and some tears. That is what I have been sitting in for the last little bit, giving into anxiety and unease around what's next.
As I was falling asleep last night, I remember praying for peace and understanding, and awoke this morning to a middle of the night text from a friend that reminded me that "tomorrow will be anxious for itself." Matthew 6, I know this Scripture well. It was spoken over me in 2007 on my first mission trip, less than a year after giving my life to the Lord, by a youth leader who calmly told me that this passage was one that I would need to embed in my heart (how prophetic that word was). And how true that was then, has been since, and is now.
So I opened my Bible this morning to that very passage...
Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is life not more than food, and the body more than clothing... your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
Matthew 6:25, 32-34
Then I journaled the following:
"I know that right now, I need to get what I know in my head - that You are Sovereign, You're in control, tomorrow will worry about itself, You have a plan, there's something even better ahead, etc. - to translate down into my heart. I know you know this, but I am a natural worrier... a what-ifer, a strategist, a "control freak." I don't necessarily want to be, but I am. I don't want to sin in this situation. I don't want my own potential disobedience - worry, distress, trying to control it - to keep me from ultimate obedience, to following where You lead me next. I want to go where You've called me go, and that's it. Nothing else but Your plan. Change isn't easy, this I do know. But I also know that change is almost always worth the initial discomfort.
So Lord, I ask that You would work this whole situation out, namely for Your glory. Remove stress and worry while I seek to responsibly discern what comes next. No worry. No fear. Only holy anticipation of what You've got ahead. Because I am sure that it will be so great."
Here is what I realized slash was reminded of this morning in my time with the Lord: our life's changes might come as surprises to us, but they do not surprise God. And while, sure, our feelings are valid, we cannot let them control us or send us down the rabbit hole of fear.
The comforting truth is that He knew this would happen, and better yet He knows what is coming next.
And there is no real reason to be anxious when the One who controls everything not only knows but also leads us into what lies ahead.
Following Him isn't always easy, but it is always worth it.
What Scriptures do you find yourself leaning on when going through change? How do you embrace and lean into change instead of resisting it?