"Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised." Romans 4:20-21
Oh, this verse has spoken to my heart before, but not in the way that it did a few days ago. In this passage, Paul is writing to the Romans of Abraham's faith in the Lord in order to encourage them in their own faith, and I, too, am encouraged. Lately I have found myself struggling with apathy, and apathy of the worst kind. I have been disinterested, disengaged, and static in my faith. I found myself not spending enough time in God's Word and I rarely sought after His guidance in prayer. The worst part of it all is that I didn't do much about it. I knew it was an attitude issue that simply needed change, but I did not seek to change it.
The Lord has blessed me far beyond what I could have ever imagined He would, and the course that my life has taken since the day I accepted Christ four years ago makes no logical sense apart from God's mighty and transformative power. With that said, I am confident that I have been pretty obedient to His will (not without struggle) in the last few years, and thus I believe that my faithfulness and obedience to Him will result in His faithfulness to deliver on His promises. Lately, however, I have been wavering through unbelief of that truth: when we are faithful, He is faithful.
"Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations, just as it had been said to him, "So shall your offspring be." Without weakening in his faith, he faced the fact that his body was as good as dead - since he was about a hundred years old - and that Sarah's womb was also dead. Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being full persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised. That is why "it was credited to him as righteousness." The words "it was credited to him" were not written for him alone, but also for us, to whom God will credit righteousness - for us who believe in him who raised Jesus our Lord from the dead. He was delivered over to death for our sins and was raised to life for our justification." Romans 4:18-25
How could I not believe that God is faithful to our obedience? Abraham believed, and so he stayed strong and firm in his faith despite circumstances and glorified God all the while. And for that, God rewarded him and credited him righteous! The best part is that we, too, are credited righteous by God when we believe!
Abraham's story is relatable and encouraging for any/all believers, especially myself, because I can easily be tempted to not believe that God has the power to deliver on His promises. But why would I? He created the universe, He created me, and He has the best in store for me. Obviously if God wants to be in this intimate relationship with me, if God seeks my heart individually and without ceasing, if He can provide for my every need, then certainly I should trust Him with every aspect my life. After all, what else do I have but Him? Nothing.
And so now I find myself convicted of the truth that when are obedient and faithful to Him, He is faithful to us - and He is good.