I am so thankful for the simple truth that God's mercies are new today. It's not as though this is any kind of revolutionary thought, but over the course of the last few weeks I have found greater meaning in it, particularly as light is being shed a little more on some of the ugly parts of my heart.
Lately I have realized that there are some sins in my life that have become almost habitual, because it's "the way I've always been" or "the thing that I've always struggled with." But those are some lame excuses, which I say with no pretense because that is exactly what they are: things I say or use to reason with the fact that what I am doing - or the way that I am living or treating another person - is okay. If the justification for my behavior or attitude is simply because it has become my normal, well, that just isn't okay at all.
I am in the process of being cut to the heart over the more subtle sins in my life, things like judgment, entitlement, and envy (just to name a few). They don't rule the majority of my thoughts or come up frequently in conversation, but they definitely reside in my heart. They are there, lying just under the surface, often dormant but still ready and waiting to rise up. It's ugly and real and very much a part of me, which is why I am so grateful that God has made me more and more aware of them lately. It's kind of like He has been pointing them out with neon lights, maybe because He knows how desperately I want to rid myself of them.
Which brings me back to His mercies. Something my pastor said recently is that, while it may not look any different outside when the clock strikes midnight, the truth remains that it is a new day. This leaves me even more grateful that those mercies of His are new today, and that they will be new again tomorrow. No matter what I am doing or struggling with, His grace is sufficient.
The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases;
His mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
great is Your faithfulness.
We are descendants of Adam, and because of that we will struggle, stumble, fumble, and fail in the process of growing out of our life of sin and more into Christ's likeness, yet His mercy is always right there to catch us. So while I seek to rid my life of those subtle sins that have made residence in my life, I must come to terms with the fact that I am a broken vessel living a broken world. But thanks to Jesus and Jesus alone, I am a work in progress. He is here, full of grace and correction, cheering me on toward a life of less sin and more of Him.