Sweet Tennessee

I figured I should update you all and let you know that I am officially in Tennessee!  It has been two days of living in this beautiful state and, if I am being honest, it hasn't always been easy.  I think that the time leading up to actually being here was full of excitement and anticipation, because I was living my life in California at the time.  Then, as I began to phase out of my two jobs, pack up my stuff, and say goodbye to people, anxiety started to creep in.  After three days of driving through six states, I arrived here and found myself excited once again, not to mention grateful to be out of the car.  But now, reality is really setting in, and my new reality is this: I do not have a job, I'm sleeping on a couch, I have nothing pressing to do each day, and my bills still need to get paid.  I'm overwhelmed, under-slept, and feeling extremely purposeless.  Remember that one time I said I was a planner?  Well that's still who I am, and so this whole waking up with nothing that really needs to be done is killing me.

Now, there are some things that are on the horizon, such as an amazing job opportunity for which I have an in-person interview in a few days, as well as a possible roommate situation with a good friend of mine. But nothing is concrete.  It is all up in the air, hanging there as possibilities that are not quite within my reach or, for all I know, within God's plan.

Yet as much as I am struggling (read: crying and pleading with God), I still believe that I am exactly where I am supposed to be.  I continue to trust that He has led me to this point and this place, because I would never have made this move if I wasn't completely confident that He was asking me to obey and trust Him.

So here I am: sort of living in Nashville, coffee shop hopping, and trying to immerse myself in the culture here without spending much money, if any.  I'm excited, anxious, and ready to see God open up some amazing doors.  My heart is expectant while I wait and pray.