Real Talk: Feelings

Traveling for the last two months has been pretty incredible, as I'm sure you can probably imagine, but if I'm going to keep it real, you need to know that it has also been pretty hard.  While it's been amazing to see so many new places, make new friends, and even live out of a suitcase (seriously, I'm loving the minimalism of it), it has also been, at times, both exhausting and lonely.  About halfway through May, right as I was landing in Rome, I was physically, emotionally, and mentally spent, and totally feeling it.  I had been go-go-go for over a month, bouncing from city to city every 3 or 4 days (with some god-awful travel days mixed in), and so I was real tired and slowly starting to realize that I was also feeling sad, simply because I was overwhelmed with alllll of the feelings: excitement, anxiety, anticipation, exhaustion, loneliness.  Best put, I felt a hot mess, and knew that my old friend melancholy wasn't too far behind.

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Leaning Into Healing

The last week has been a tough one for me, both emotionally and spiritually, and despite coming across as calm on the surface, I've felt anything but.  On top of some current and looming life changes which are both exciting and terrifying, I have found myself thinking more deeply on a few different topics, namely the idea of family and my own personal experiences with both my biological and spiritual families.  And it has been challenging to wade through all of the newly-discovered yet unresolved feelings I've encountered.  In the middle of all of this, I happened upon this post and just about lost it.  The line that really hit me was:

"Healing parts of your heart that you’ve once put to the side—whether to survive, to be strong, to avoid pain or take care of others—may be the most powerful act of faith that God is calling you to make today."

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