Salsa Dancing in Barcelona

Prior to leaving for Europe, and prior to moving back to California for that matter, I had convinced myself that I needed to have a season of rest to be "spiritually ready" for such a long and adventurous trip.  I'd been working like a crazy person while in Nashville, logging in anywhere from 60-80 hours per week with all of my jobs, first to pay off debt and then to save for this trip, and was honestly really ready for that busy season to be over.  But once I was in California, I found it very difficult to not be "doing," and therefore didn't rest (to almost no one's surprise I am sure).  Then about two weeks before leaving for London, I had this massive realization that I hadn't done what I thought I was supposed to do (rest), and therefore thought I wasn't going to be ready for the trip because I hadn't spent enough time with Jesus.  But something in my spirit quickly revealed something else: that maybe all of that about rest and spiritual preparation was just some sort of plan I had concocted on my own and wasn't really from God after all, but that maybe — just maybe — the trip itself was the real season of rest and spiritual rejuvenation and growth.

Which brings me to Barcelona...

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Passion 2012

Here it is: the post where I attempt to explain all that Passion 2012 did to my perspective, my plans, and my heart.

First of all, I should let y'all know much it broke my heart that I wasn't able to make it out there in person.  I was so excited to have been given a scholarship, but with my work responsibilities, lack of finances, and procrastination in trying to raise funds I finally realized that it just wasn't going to happen.  Even while I was watching the lives streams (because yes, I was absolutely glued to my computer screen for every  session), sadness began to creep in as I realized that I could have so easily been one of the 43,000 who were at the dome!  As I was praying through it, the Lord actually revealed to me what a blessing it was that I wasn't there physically… uh, what?!  But yeah, seriously!

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