Gosh, even just typing out the title of this post freaks me out. Twenty-eight? How the heck is that possible? Something about that number just feels so much older, and so close to thirty, and like maybe I should have my life together a little (or a lot) more than I currently do, ya know? Which is why it's so ironic that I am here to share some exciting, scary, and all around bittersweet news, because it all feels a little haphazard and crazy and like I don't have anything together at all. but hey, I know God loves to move in that space. So here it is:
Yep, it's true! After four wonderful years of living in Nashville, I am getting ready move to move back to where I grew up in the San Francisco Bay Area. But I want you to know that I am not moving for a new job or career opportunity. I am heading back to California namely to be closer to family for a few months, and also to start planning for my next big adventure. And let me say, I think that the word "adventure" often tends to elicit feelings of excitement, awe, and wanderlust, and while I feel these things from time to time, I'm also in the middle of some of the less glamorous feelings of sadness, fear, and anxiety. There is a lot of risk involved in this next season, but I also have the strongest sense that I am doing exactly what I am supposed to do.
It's only been a week, but so far twenty-six has been filled with nuggets of good stuff. Twenty-five was six months of radical good and six months of heartbreaking hard, so this past birthday was welcomed with open arms and a hunger for change. And friends, I am already tasting the goodness of this new season. Here are some things that turning twenty-six has already taught me:
1. Age really is just a number.
First, I don't feel any different than I did at twenty-five, and not much has changed aside from my knees suddenly cracking all of the time. I'm not wiser, or older, or smarter, or more put-together, or anything of that sort; I am just a year older. Second, I have realized that if I want to be more driven, more passionate, or more prepared to move onto new things, it's not a matter of "when I'm older"... it's all about attitude. If I want it, I need to just go for it. Nothing is holding me back, especially not my age. Read More
Earlier this month I spent almost two (glorious) weeks back in my home state of California for a few different events, including a wedding, VBS at the church I used to work at, and to see friends and family. On one of my final days while I was staying in my hometown in the Bay Area, I decided to take my rental car, plus some sweet Spotify playlists, and drive the Pacific Coast Highway down to Big Sur. My view as I drove alongside sandy beaches, curving cliffs, and towering redwoods was both spectacular and refreshing, and that day away to reflect and process and pray was exactly what my little soul needed
See, I had just come off of the high of attending my fourth wedding of the year thus far (two more to go!), and found myself really struggling with contentment in this season of my life... I mean, where the single ladies/fellas at? Because I feel like most of y'all can relate with this struggle that is all too real. It was actually a pretty weird thing for me, though, because 80% of the time I'm completely cool with where God currently has me: as a young woman in my mid-twenties, working my butt off at a great job (plus extra gigs to help pay off student loans), going on fun adventures with my girlfriends, mentoring teenage girls, teaching kiddos at church, and *gasp* being single. Yes, I am saying that far more often than not, I actually enjoy this season, which for some odd reason seems to take a lot of people off guard. Read More
Anyone else out there ever struggled with or questioned a place you've been in, or even the one that you are in currently? Because I definitely have, and even sometimes still do. The more I think about it, the more I'm convinced that it is far too easy for us nowadays to become discontent in our spaces - our work, our homes, our relationships, even our own bodies - and that, my friends, is a slippery slope. With the rise of multiple social media platforms over the last few years, we have grown so accustomed to seeing highlight reel after highlight reel of other people's lives (think our feeds on Instagram, Facebook, etc.) that it can make certain aspects of our own lives seem boring or insignificant. Read More