I'm not sure if you heard, but the other day Southwest Airlines faced some major technical glitches that forced many flights to cancel -- including my own. I was at San Francisco International ready to head back home to Nashville after an eleven day adventure in California when hundreds of us realized that our flights had been delayed or cancelled. It took a few hours for the agents to rebook everyone, and I found myself in the Bay Area for one more night. So the next day I took off from San Fran and I arrived in San Diego only to find out my next flight had been cancelled as well (and couldn't be rebooked for 2 days). Oh, and hey, it was ComicCon in San Diego which meant all of the hotels in the area were booked. Guys, it was a serious mess.
While I got my situation figured out with the help of spiritual family, I have to say that the whole debacle it was an interesting sight to behold. Thousands of people were affected across the country, and many of the ones I saw in San Francisco and San Diego were acting like hell had frozen over. There was a lot of frustration and yelling and anger, much of which was directed at the agents behind the counters or the customer service reps over the phone. I don't know if I have ever seen so many angry and irritable people in such a condensed space/amount of time before, but it sure was ugly. Read More
God has been doing some weird / hard / cool stuff over the last few weeks, and as I've been digesting all that He has been opening up in my heart, I have also been praying about what and how to share what I am learning in this space. So this next bit is probably going to be a little messy, but this is me in my brokenness hoping to potentially encourage you in yours.
It all started two weeks ago when I finished reading and then watched the movie "Me Before You" (disclaimer: I enjoyed the story and, while it was sad and I wish it could have ended differently, I accept it for what it is: a fictional story written by a human being). The book had me in tears over the sadness of the story, but the movie did something different to me. I still cried, of course, but not for the same reasons. I found myself a hot mess because of the deep, profound thing that it did in my heart. It forced me to get real and honest before God; honest about my dreams and desires and the things that have caused me to not trust Him fully. So upon leaving the theatre, I drove aimlessly around Nashville with tears streaming down my face, having it out with my Father. Read More
The other day, I was reminded of an important and yet hard-to-swallow truth: that life isn't always easy or pretty or fun, and sometimes there is just nothing we can do about it. Over the last few weeks months, so much hard and unknown have been swirling around me. It started with my grandmother's passing in November, then potential work changes, my own minor health issues, and topped off on Friday with a text informing me that a close family member was in the hospital with a heart attack (all is well now, praise Jesus!), I must admit that I have been tempted to discouragement... to throwing my hands up in the air and exclaiming, "No, no more. I am done!" But before I could get there, I was reminded of an even more consuming truth: that it is in these moments that I must cling to Jesus.
In the midst of the utter messiness of life, Jesus is there. When the waves are crashing violently and it seems the boat is about to sink, He is ever steady. And it is in this place that I don't want any ounce of unbelief to overshadow my true belief in who He says He is. Read More
This post has seriously taken me a long time to sit down and pound out. I have been reflecting and praying about my time at Passion 2014 Atlanta, about the intense moments of worship and the messages that so permeated my heart, and I think that I am finally ready to share with y'all. Let's start on night one. Since they did not do community groups this year as the conference was much shorter, on the first night we were encouraged to meet in groups of 5 with people that we didn't come to the conference with (easy for me since I went alone, which is a crazy story by itself) and to spend 15 minutes answering a question and praying for one another. That question - "What do you want/hope to learn from the Lord here at Passion?" - was a tough one for me to answer. I just wasn't really sure what I was hoping for. But then I remembered my word for the year - pursuit - and I realized that the thing I wanted God to reveal was some clarification on how I should begin pursuing some of the dreams/visions He has put on my heart. So I shared that in my group, and we all prayed for one another. Read More