I’m sure this will come as a surprise to no one, but I have to officially say that this last year has been the wildest, weirdest, and most life-changing one of my life thus far. There were so many things that happened, so many new places that were visited, and so many ways in which I grew, and in that I declare that 2018 was a game changer. I solo-traveled for the first time in March, followed closely by my big solo-trip around Europe; I learned more about who I am and the way I’ve been made (thanks for the assist, enneagram — a 4w3 right here); I learned how to identify my feelings and work through them in a healthy way; my confidence and belief in myself skyrocketed; I embraced my single status and am (finally) thriving in it; and — most importantly — I stepped into more freedom and abundance as I’ve continued to follow Jesus. It hasn’t been an easy year — not in the slightest. But it has undoubtedly been the best one yet.
So here it is: a quick recap of this last year . . . Read More
If there's been one constant or consistent theme in my little life so far, it is change, and I'm sure I'm not the only one. From jobs to friends to passions to cities, it seems that the things in our lives are always moving and changing, and in the midst of the endless transitions, it feels like we are all just doing our best to keep up. I've been on this earth for almost thirty years, and do you want to know what I've learned about change? It never ends. Life is full of change, and there's a very good chance that things will continue to shift as we keep on living; our jobs, our circumstances, the people in our lives, where we live, and everything in between will inevitably continue to grow, morph, and change. Does this thought freak you out? If so, you are not alone. Change is a hard concept for a lot of people because risk and fear are closely associated with it, and that is hard for many to grapple with. It can mean a disruption in what is familiar and comfortable, or it could potentially be a life-flipped-upside-down kind of thing, and while these are sometimes the results of choice, they can also come at you out of nowhere. So yes, it makes sense that a lot of people aren't huge fans of change. Read More
God has been doing some weird / hard / cool stuff over the last few weeks, and as I've been digesting all that He has been opening up in my heart, I have also been praying about what and how to share what I am learning in this space. So this next bit is probably going to be a little messy, but this is me in my brokenness hoping to potentially encourage you in yours.
It all started two weeks ago when I finished reading and then watched the movie "Me Before You" (disclaimer: I enjoyed the story and, while it was sad and I wish it could have ended differently, I accept it for what it is: a fictional story written by a human being). The book had me in tears over the sadness of the story, but the movie did something different to me. I still cried, of course, but not for the same reasons. I found myself a hot mess because of the deep, profound thing that it did in my heart. It forced me to get real and honest before God; honest about my dreams and desires and the things that have caused me to not trust Him fully. So upon leaving the theatre, I drove aimlessly around Nashville with tears streaming down my face, having it out with my Father. Read More